Sorry to hear tats. That's one of my worst fears..I've been with my girl for damn near 4 years now; still not married though. The word freaks me out cause I don't want to have to change...I know I do a lot of stupid shit, and right now she puts up with it, but you never know how long that will last. I think that females in general all have another side to them, whether they admit it or not. There's the side that you see, and there's a side you hope you never have to encounter...her telling you to piss off out of the blue--I mean where does that shit come from?...no excuses, just a f*ck you & goodbye. It doesn't make sense that all of the fuckin sudden they have all these concerns & shit to say, when the day before everything was just peachy. Communication is necessary in a relationship, but I guess it only goes soo far.
Hang in there man, don't be hard on yourself; remember...it's not your fault this shit's being dropped like a bomb on ya.