sorry for the loss it hard to grasp.
maybi this will make you feel alittle better.3 years ago i lost my best freind in a fight,he was stabbed to death over a few extacy pills.then over a year later i lost another really close freind,he was shott at the drag races in detroit,they were being robbed and tryed to take a freinds little sister well he stopped that.then they stopped him to 2 shots with a 9mm to the cheast.then the next year i lost another good freind i grew up with all of these guys.he was having girl problems,as far as i know he killed himself laying in bed all fucked up with a gun bam one to the head.i had another freind die of natural causes and my grandpa just dies a few weeks ago.thas been my past 3 years im only 23.
these things are hard to go thru but its a part of life,and we learn to try to deal with it.its even harder when you hang arounf the person all the time and there just gone,its like a big empty hole that can never be filled.